DT’s Holistic Healing

If everyone can experience the love I have for myself for themselves, this world would be an amazing place that I would camp out weeks outside in the cold and rain to get tickets for. I love the fuck out of myself. I make sure to tell that to myself every day. I wake up and say to myself, “Self, I love the shit out of you.” Self makes sure I know that that love is reciprocated. I’m rubber and you’re glue and whatever you say, blah blah blah, you know the rest. The point is that it does stick to me. I am both the rubber and glue and I’m not sure exactly how that works but since that’s not the point of the story, just know where I’m going with this and play along. Love for yourself is a fucking superpower, and it’s not easy to come by. In case you haven’t read a comic book all superheroes have some kind of tragic origin story. Batmans parents got merced, Uncle Ben was able to hit Spiderman with the whole great power, great responsibility before he was no longer in the land of the living, Supermans entire planet got destroyed. They all life kick them in the teeth before they became that which we know them best for, being some hard ass, powerful, selfless individuals that are trying to help mankind. Which I hate to say it is going to be pretty much the same timeline for most of us that receive the power of true selflove. Let me just say that it is truly powerful.

So I guess this is where we start with my origin story, and honestly, there’s alot going on with it. I’m not going to be able to speak about most of it, or pretty much any of it at this point in time. I’ve had a pretty tough go of it throughout the fantastic journey that I have been lucky to experience in this lifetime. Some of you are wondering how that even makes sense, and I hope in time you’re able to just like I was, or am actually. I mean when I was like that when it didn’t make sense, but like now that I am, you know what, again not the point. Actually, let me just get to that so we can get this going. I was in this toxic relationship, like a lot of us have been in. I was in it for over a year, possibly two. I honestly can’t remember and don’t won’t to recall the specifics of it, but there was a lot of drug use and her cheating on me and me knowing it but can’t prove it. So, I drove myself crazy trying to catch her but her being sneaky enough to beat me at that game, so I just kept following that rabbit hole further and further and further down until I hit the fucking bedrock. I finally found out what was going on one night, caught her in the act. I finally had that closure. Thats a good thing right, pretty good. But then not a couple weeks later I’m finding myself on the way to prison for a probation revocation because I can’t stop doing drugs to numb myself from this 1 or 2 yearlong depression that devastated me to the core. I was completely broken. Tore down all the way to the bedrock, the foundation of my person.

Now, I got lucky I feel like. Most of you are probably wondering why I would think that. Well, guess you’re the lucky ones now since I’m going to fill you in on it. I was put in a position where I had nothing but time to work on myself. I wasn’t alone, but I didn’t have anyone there with me honestly. However, I did have the most important person in the Universe there with me, myself. Just so happens I was completely broken, and I decided that I was going to build myself back up in the version of myself that I wanted. The best possible version of myself there could be. Now, I’m wanting you to know that I’m still working on myself and will continue to do so. The cornerstone of this entire operation though was my decision to love myself more than anything else. To believe that I would never do anything intentional to hurt myself. To do what is best for me at all times. Now that’s honestly a bit of a fantasy because I don’t always do those things. I would like to believe that I would every time, but we are human. We all are fallible. So, when I do something that isn’t the best for me or do something that i know is going to hurt me, i don’t beat myself up about it, actually the opposite. I’m gentle with myself, understanding of my shortcomings. It doesn’t really work getting upset with yourself. It does the opposite actually, as far as i can tell. Everyone’s different, but there’s a reason they say you catch more fly’s with honey than vinegar. Same goes with the compassion you build for yourself, if you stay kind and loving it just amplifies it.

Now, here’s where i give you the juice. And honestly, it’s so fucking simple. Most of the information I’ll be passing onto you follows the acronym K.I.S.S. Keep It Simple Stupid. Honestly, i don’t like that, that used to be the way i addressed it, but we’re going to change that today. It’s Keep It Simple Superhero. So, I want all you Superheroes in training to listen to your coach here. Alright guys, grab you a water and take a knee. Now I know you’ve been running hard out there, and you’re doing a great job, but if you want to beat Tech coming up, you got to remember this gameplan. Every day, as soon as you get up and are getting ready in the bathroom, look in the mirror and tell yourself you love you. That you are your best friend, that you are proud of yourself, and how far you’ve come. And I don’t give a flying fuck whether you believe it or not. Just keep doing it, every single day. Day in and day out you tell yourself in the mirror you love yourself in the morning and I promise you, whether you believe it or not starting out, before long you have no choice but to believe it. Before long, you tell yourself every time you go take a piss you love yourself, every time you go to wash your hands that you love yourself, hell you’ll go in there just to tell yourself you love yourself. Don’t believe me, well than fucking find out for yourself. Find out if I’m full of shit or not, and even though my eyes are brown that’s neither here nor there. I promise that just the act of saying it will start to change the way you feel about yourself. It is really that simple guys, just tell yourself you love yourself and I promise you’ll begin to love yourself.

I will be here to give you more information to help guide you on this process, but this is the starting point from which your selflove will blossom into the wonderful person you already are and will be. Complicated, but simple at the same time. Just like this selflove. Please, don’t do it for me, do it for yourself. I promise you’ll start to see a change soon, and a power that you didn’t know was capable of is not far behind. Stay strong Superheroes, see you soon.