Addiction is a serious thing. If you haven’t had to experience it, good for you, keep it that way. However, for those of us who have had to delve the depths of addiction, it is a very serious thing. It’s all encompassing of your person, your mind, your health, your soul, it takes control and shit gets real. I have battled substance use problems my entire life and will continue to do so until I’m no longer on this wonderful earth. I’ve happened to learn a thing or two along the way and just so happens that I have this wonderful new age of technology to be able to share them. One thing for sure, two things for certain I can tell you exactly how not to do things. For some reason, I tend to go my life the hard way and the lessons learned are very much cemented in to my rolodex of fuck-upery. I have always felt that you don’t just try something once. You have to do it at least 3 or 4 times to make sure whether you like it or not. You’ve heard of people not getting stoned the first time they smoke pot. That’s the basis upon my train of thought there. I mean it took me 5 trips to prison to realize, “You know what, this ain’t for me.” Hopefully, some of you read this and are able to take what I say to heart and implement it into your life. I know some of you have to just fuck around and find out for yourself and trust me I get it. Later on after you’ve happened to find out, you’ll see that I knew what I was talking about and you could of saved yourself alot of fucking around. I happen to have done a very copious amount of fucking around and found out a lot of pretty vital shit along the way.
I have happened to live a moderately rough life, depending on perspective of course. Those that this is meant for know exactly what the fuck I’m talking about. Ya’ll know the seriousness of that disease of addiction. It’s like those British Guards that stand at their posts, all business, no bullshit. Only the business of addiction is to take over your life and control every single action you do. And when you’re in the throes of that no nonsense entrepreneur of substance abuse, business is booming. Business that promises to break your wallet, your person, every single aspect about yourself. As someone that has been broken more times than I care to count, I can attest to the holistic acumen of addictions devastatingly destructive properties. The scars that I carry are deep and jagged from that cunning &@*#%!$. I’ll let ya’ll interpret that how you want, personalize that however you feel. Not too long ago, I was broken down completely, way worse than that fucking Humpty Dumpty ever even thought about being. Now, that may sound pretty fucking terrible, and just for clarifications sake, it fucking was. However, and this is where I want you to really stay with me here, if you do happen to get completely demolished and have to rebuild, you might as well make yourself into exactly who you want to be. You just so happen to be able to do whatever the fuck you want in this world. Only thing that can stop you from being the version of yourself you dream of being is you. Here’s where I hope you’re able to pick up and implement into your life for not me, but for yourself.
Take it easy, take it chill, keep a positive mindset, be gentle with yourself, and most importantly find the fucking funny. Humor heals. Laugher is contagious. If you happen to be rebuilding, you have no idea how helpful it is to your construction if you’re able to look at the serious shit that happened to you and view at with a comedic perspective and be able to laugh at all the horseshit you trudged through, I can promise that you will come out smelling better than a single guy on his way to the bar hoping to get lucky. Now, this is just a matter of perspective, but I’m fucking funny. I entertain myself all day, everyday. I’ve learned that whatever is meant to happen in this life is meant to happen exactly when it’s meant to happen. So really, fuck it. Acceptance is a big thing that I happen to be working on myself. Being able to accept what the universe has in store for you and keeping a positive mindset about it is a fucking superpower. I struggle with it at times, but nothing in life is 100%. There’s exceptions to every rule. However, I will strap my cape on 99% of the time because of the mindset I have built up from the rubble of what I was. I have a positive, happy, optimistic outlook on life and let me tell you, life has gotten so much easier for me. Just by being able to find the fuckin funny, my construction into the version of myself that I happen to be in now, which is the best one so far if I’m being honest (which I always am), has been pretty streamlined and smooth. I still have a way to go to get to my goals, but that’s not the way I look at it. The distance I have covered from what I was is something I make sure to tell myself regularly that I’m proud of. It’s not how far you got to go, but how far you’ve come. Look at it like that, and you’re going to do pretty good.
I’m going to leave you with some words of wisdom here. A pessimist is always alone. An optimist like my self at any point in time, I’m only two people away from a threesome. Now that’s fucking funny.
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